Some lessons are so hard to learn and we find ourselves doing the same things over and over and then when we learn them…WOW…they are so simple. I almost got myself “used” to the feelings I didn’t like…I say almost because I never liked them. Though emotions are justified doesn’t always mean they are necessary and healthy for us… So what is it I don’t like about my older sister. Actually I do love her. I was raised to do so she is my sister…well…thinking long and hard about all this anger and emotions it came to me during meditation. I don’t like me about her…so what did that mean…it means I don’t like the person I allow myself to become when I am with her. Her actions and choices, whether acceptable by society or not are just that her actions and choices. I don’t have to be responsible and I don’t have to be embarrassed and I don’t have to be angry or righteous about it. I do owe it to myself to stay out of the line of fire and I do owe it to myself to continue making the choices that are best for me…but I don’t owe it to myself to expect her to be that which she chooses not to…so since I can’t change her I have to stop trying and spinning like a top…I have to accept her for her…and she has to accept me for me…no judgment…our paths have crossed in this lifetime I believe for a reason…her reason is her reason…my reason is to learn to love myself…to stop being so judgmental of myself…because it is really the feelings I feel inside myself that anger me about her…acceptance…love and trust from within…I am learning to tolerate her and actually made a call to see if she got home safely in the ice storm…I was concerned…so…I don’t have to like everything…but I have to be able to live in my own skin…it isn’t so bad in here…huggs…Sassy
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That is good thinking about your sister. Judi
that is a great step forward in your life… she is herself..and you are you… neither one of you are expected to be like the other… you don’t have to approve or disapprove of each other because then that would be judging… and that is something you don’t want to do. In other words, live and let live…. and just enjoy each other for who you are….hugs..
Things will be well with my daughter or they won’t it is her choice to stay away. I love her and have told her many times so she will have to decide. Judi
Acceptance is the key…
It’s amazing to me how we can justify the most absurd things. We’re nuts!
you are growing nicely…takes forever and never stops…but you are on the path and you will be sooo much happier