March 24, 2007
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My mom suffered a Grande Mall seizure the other day. You know, I always thought I could handle a crises, well, here is to say factually, I can’t. I walked down the hall and she was in the chair and her head was on the dresser and I thought she fainted again. Mom has Parkinson Disease which led to Shy Dragger. Her blood pressure drops and she faints. I take her blood pressure to raise it several times a day. Well, she was not in a faint, her tongue was out and her jaw was clamped and her eyes were like dead stone with pin hole pupils and she was making this awful snore noise that then stopped and thank God, Shining Silk was there. I don’t know how long she was out but it took over two minutes for her to revive…during that time I shook cried held her, tapped her face and screamed MOMMY…I thought she was dead. Silky said she had a pulse…I wasn’t there…it was like a cloud of fear surrounded my being…MOMMY DON’T DIE was the only thought in my head and I was terrified…she came out of it okay and the neurologist states it is due to the diseases. Her blood pressure drops so low it causes seizures. She is now on seizure medicine and it is still fresh so we check on her constantly like a pot on the stove boiling water. I was so happy she didn’t leave yet. Not the death itself that I fear. Just the fear of her fear of it and me loosing my mom…I love her…very much. Two days later…feisty nut that she is…there she was crawling around the floor picking…she does this, crazy shit I don’t understand but doc says it is VERY common with the disease…so I am at work and Silky is walking in the back door to check her…we are afraid to leave her too long…well she has this broom all messed up from leaning on it and the back door is open and the mallards (henry and henrietta and frank) that visit my pool every spring for a bit are trying to get in the kitchen and Nacho the dog threw up…God knows what she fed him and Taku who is on diuretics for a heart disease and I confine to the non carpeted area is in the carpeted den sound asleep. Silky calls me at work…unlike me who freaks when she does these things laugh my butt off…when I hung up I went to the ladies room and cried…I am happy she is doing okay…I love her…huggs Sassy
Comments (13)
Don’t be too hard on yourself. They found Moses in a basket.
I’m sorry that you had such a fright!
I’m sorry about that. I always thought I could handle a crisis until my mom had to cancer scare.. I handled my cancer scare better than hers. You always hate seeing others hurting.
is there a way that you can get someone to come in and watch her? Something like at home adult care done by social services? If she qualifies, it is free…. so you may want to look into that. This person also takes care of regular household duties too while they are there. Sounds like she need someone there while you are away. hugs and hope it gets better for you.
You are already handling a crises!! just look at what you are doing every day!!
You’re doing better than you know. What a scary thing to be with. But you got through it and you had support. I’m glad for you. Blessings abound
Sassy I will say a prayer for you and your Mom. I know how you feel I lost my Mom and she was way up in her 90′s and I was not ready to have her go. Judi
I’m the “rock,” now that my Mom’s health has gotten worse, over the years, but I think I would’ve behaved exactly like you did…and not felt one smidge of guilt or anything negative. That is your MOTHER! Good heavens, Woman! When it comes to something like this, there is no right or wrong way to handle it. We aren’t given instructions on how to deal with stuff like this, so we just do the best we can. Yes, some will appear to be able to handle it “better,” but, really Hon, there’s nothing wrong with flippin’ out. I know this just makes her imminent death seem that much closer, which is something we might think about but are never really prepared to handle.
Pat yourself on the back that you can be here with your mother, regardless of your conflicting emotions. I’m rooting for you!
And I love you…GFW
Nobody can handle this kind of crisis. I wish you much courage in handling all this.
Hope your Mom is better. Have a Happy Easter. Do come and see me. Judi
Thanks for dropping by, I wish you and yours well through all this.
How you doing Sassy. How is your Mom, Judi
You are very courageous Sassy . and a very loving daughter .
Love
Michel