August 28, 2007

• Tae passed over today.  Again, at 2am he was here, ill but here.  At 6am he was gone.  He seemed to be a bit better over the weekend then he took a turn for the worst.  He couldn’t “go” just like Kwon.  His pneumonia seemed better, the antibiotics helped the breathing.  He refused food.  He seemed so hungry but wouldn’t eat.  The critical care was hurting his belly because he couldn’t “go”.  He ate Sunday.  I didn’t feed him Monday.  Silky kept trying to get him to drink water.  We settled for his lips being wet.  We held him for hours.  He laid in my bed.  He slept on his Dad (my husband’s) chest for three hours under  a blanket.  I held him again, covered him and at 2am went to sleep.  I dreamt he first turned to an orange and black fish then a very weak little mouse instead of a guinea pig.  He passed this huge bowel that was black and gray and it unfolded into a mini alligator.  I think that after all the Reiki I did, I saw him evolve.  He fought the alligator and it died and then he was biting it and I pulled him away from it.  He scratched my right hand and it bled a bit and he evolved into himself a smaller version and grew normal then floated away in a cloud of white and happy.  I knew in my dream he fought the demon of pain and released himself into the light.  His Spirit soared.  I miss him so much, he was like a puppy, he would run over to the door of the cage and give kisses upon request (all 7 did/do only 4 left) and he would sit and let you scratch his nose.  He loved snow peas and carrots…I will see you again my Tae, play with Neo and Kwon and stay healthy.  I love you my little one…Mommy  

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