Okay Paloma tagged me…LOOK JAMES ITS FOUR…lol…here I go:

MY LIFE IN FOURS

4 jobs I have had in my life:
1. Aroebic teacher and Nautilus Instructor
2. Assistant in Insurance Agency
3. Secretary at Hair Replacement center
4. Reiki Master 

4 movies I can watch over & over:
1. Fatso
2. Michael
3. The Big Easy
4. Jungle Book 

4 places where I have lived:
1.  North Haledon, NJ
2.  Lakewood, Colorado
3.  Rahway, New Jersey
4.  Central Jersey.

4 tv shows that I love to watch:
1. Survivor-I’ll keep this one from Paloma ’cause I do occasionally
2. Will & Grace maybe three times yearly
3. Seinfeld maybe once over past 12 months
4. Cooking show if I am sick in bed -I really don’t like TV

4 places I have been on vacation:
1. Bahamas.
2. California-the entire coastline.
3. Four Corners – does that count as another four.
4. Key Largo, Florida 

4 websites I visit daily:
1.Xanga-not daily-I’m not able to get on every day to the computer
2. Daily Om-If I can.
3. All my favorite Reiki sites when I have a chance.
4. Ebay cause its’ fun.

4 of my favorite foods:
1. Mexican
2. Italian.
3. Soup-MINE-blackbean
4. Pineapples

4-this got messed up but I think it means where I’d like to be or visit

1. Greece-definitely 2. Alaska-always 3. on the beach with a beach chair in the waves reading a book and sipping something cold 4. Anywhere with my daughter having fun.

4 engrossing books too good to put down:
ONLY FOUR-the one I’m reading now would be 1. The Rainbow Follows the Storm 2. The DaVinci Code 3. Ashes in the Wind 4. Memoirs of a Geisha…these are just ones I can think of now…I love to read…

TAG……………..YOUR IT…………………. 

just be

with each ray of sunshine and each breeze on me…i just be

with each scent of winter and each leaf that glides…i just be

with each sunrise and sunset i am honored to see…i just be

with each moon and star in the sky so still…i just be

with each sound of laughter and each tear of sadness…i just be

with each grain of sand through my feet in the waves…i just be

with each day of watching my little one grow…i just be

…i am learning to be me…to just be…i dance the dance of life and the

   beat feels good to me…i just be…Sassy©

Funny how things work…now that I have put work in to its proper place and taken the “personal” out of it and been concentrating more on my reiki, well…work has gotten a bit better…and the reiki is getting wonderful…business cards are made…statement of disclosure is completed…I have one client, a dog  named Brandy another client, my mom…a woman that is very interested and one I heard of today for a little girl…I am hoping the last two fruit soon…I never knew that finding what I want to do could be so fulfilling…I am feeling very fulfilled…I am still studying…having the certification to me just means a step forward…I want to continue learning and absorbing all I can from my lessons…I have another one this Friday…it is like a well that I continue to drink from…each drink refreshes and yet leaves a desire for more…my daughter is back from the master’s convention in Florida for several weeks now and she had a wonderful time and enjoyed herself very much…this is a pix of her in the elevator of the Peabody Hotel in Orlando where the convention took place…she grew up that week, a lot…she respects herself and what she can do so much more it seems to me…that is all for now I am going to make a concerted effort to visit my XangaLand friend’s sites…but for now I must rest…huggs Sassy

Today I told my boss simply “I give up” and I meant it…I won’t bide my time…I’ll just accept the fact that my job is a demotion…but I know why…when he needed me in his pocket to get where he wanted to go it was nice having me as a secretary and being the owner’s dear friend…now that he is a part owner (20%) I am an obstacle because he is doing things behind her back…I guess…this is what is meant to be…she won’t listen…I won’t tell…he is disturbed by my presence…I am hurt…I hired and trained him 20 years ago…I truly liked him…sometimes I think that I am an awful judge of character…I seem to trust and like people and they take advantage of that and instead of getting angry…I get hurt…Tere’s dad keeps telling me via telephone he loves me…does he think he is gonna not make it home or something…he hasn’t shown affection toward me since the cancer…like the disease would spread to him or something and that pain is gone now…confusion reigns here…and him, my “healer”…I truly think he takes advantage of his “abilities” to his favor and I was subconsciously intruded apone…my therapist has been telling me this for several years…I really am angry at me tonight…I had a little too much to drink…two Margaritas a beer and a sip of wine and I am wasted…yet I feel such clarity about myself…Tere’ called she is having a wonderful time…she did a demonstration on stage for defense and a show on “chicks with sticks”  she must have looked cute…Ernie Reyes was one of her teachers today at the seminar…she feels part of something…she is growing and finding herself…I miss her so much…liquor isn’t good for one’s body but sometimes it brings the sleep of oblivion we need…I need that tonight…I will see him next Sunday (the healer) and I know in my heart of hearts that (a) he will ignore me and (b) I will never see him again…so I feel relief yes…but sadness too…why…because I think there is something wrong with me sometimes…well…off to sober up…this is embarrassing…I am not one to let liquor cloud my reality…not good for meditation…what happened here…shruuggssss…Sassy

Thank you so much for your well wishes…I am listening to Nacho “snore” he does this very loudly…next to me as I type…the Dr/Vet tells me that the tumor looked quite different yesterday than it did last week during his exam…he romoved it and assures me it is NOT cancer and while last week he was sure of skin cancer, oddly and thankfully it is not, something is different he said and scratched his head.  He goes back in ten days for suture removal.  He has an Elizabethen Collar for when the itching starts.  He also took the liberty of giving him a “free” tooth cleaning and took off some skin tags on his forehead and around his eye.  A complete “overhaul” he called it.  He is well…I am so relieved and happy my beaglebaby is well.  Also I didn’t mention it yesterday but BettyBoop (guinea pig) was ill yet again with the same thing.  She bloated, became constipated and passed after two days this white horn like think that she happened to pass in “front” of the Dr/Vet…I had her and Nacho there at the same time.  He had no idea, not a guinea pig expert, what the “hell” it was.  He suggested I go to a specialist that wanted $500 to walk in the door, back on the phone with my Vet.  He says.  Look, she is older, small and got through this last time with your care.  I won’t tell you what to do, but if they put her to sleep she might not make it.  I didn’t have the extra $500 so I kept her home, fed her distilled water through a syringe and pulverized her food for four days, with my sister (Silky)’s “bullet” and help.  She is getting better.  She sings for her food and has a smaller appetite no doubt from her stomach being shrunk but she is on the road to recovery I think…I also did a lot of prayer and offered her illness, Nacho’s illness and Taku’s heart condition in a healing to Creator.  I am glad she is feeling better.  Now I am dropping my little one off to get on a plane to Florida (thankfully Wilma is gone) and she is going to a “Master’s Convention” for karate.  This will (third year of high school) help her decide if indeed she does want to do this for a living and will be such fun for her.  Yoga, Sword fighting lessons, sparring, seminars…instructors and other black belts from around the world.  Her boss, the Master of her school, is taking her and three other instructors.  He pays the ticket, the seminar, the social and the Saturday night BlackTie Affair dinner.  I pay the food and the room.  I am nervous.  She will bunk with her dad though and that is a relief.  First time on a plane without me though.  A wonderful experience for her…I have no nails left and she isn’t gone yet.  I miss her…hope she has fun and yet…I can’t wait until Sunday when she returns…off to start the day…will try to visit some sites soon…I have to work up north today…I am usually so very tired when I return I can’t even get past a few…my business cards for my Reiki should be in very soon and I am very excited…huggs to all of you…Sassy

Nacho has been diagnosed with skin cancer…he is having surgery as I type…I have been doing healings on him from Creator…I am giving this to Creator…yet…the human child within me fears for him…Sassy

HIS

His eyes like a flame sear through my mind

His smile like a song warms my heart

His touch like velvet on my skin I feel

His ams like a warrior made from steel

His body so demanding like a storm in the sky

Against him I find comfort and the night will just fly

HIs love like a story fills my Soul…………………….

©Sassy

I also wasn’t tagged…but like PALOMA I am going to play anyway…thanks Paloma…LIST FIVE THINGS THAT YOU WOULD CONSIDER WIERD ABOUT YOURSELF:

1) I WILLNOT break bread (eat) with people that I feel don’t like me.

2)  I can not list ONE PERSON that I hate…I don’t hate anyone…I dislike some people a bit but not even immensely…

3) I am not offended by the word F***…but I am offended by someone taking God’s name in vain.

4)  As a child I would talk to my “Guardian Angel”…he was a man and I would hear his voice.

5) I remember being three in the hospital and I remember dreams very vividly that I had as a child…

I am answering epeemom’s question about me feeling ambivalent…see I have had so many demotions in work over the past year that I have been feeling sad…I don’t intend to quit…it is a part of who I am at this time and for now.  Plus it helps with the bills…I am a loyal worker and do love the people that I work for…so…this saddens me but it should make me a bit happy since I have completed not all but enough of my studies to start my own business…and this shouldn’t matter as much…what I want should…and yes it does…yet I should be thrilled and I am…yet I am scared because of change…the what ifs what ifs what ifs…but I will slowly wet my feet and start doing what in my heart I know is right for me to do…my Reiki…I have been studying for the past ten months and have completed Level 3.  The form I am studying has 4 Levels and is a 2000 year old Tibetan form.  While the outcome is the same for the teachings…the methods are different…I am humbled and honored that I have been given this opportunity…healing thoughts and lots of huggs to all of you…Sassy