March 7, 2009

• just a rant…

  I am so done stick a fork in me…I am exhausted, she has a (mom) very bad bronchial infection and the peeruns and the runruns and four more meds on top of her six meds that she takes and she is so ornery.  yesterday at 4am she peed the bed so badly it went through all sheets including the rubber sheet and the pads and the nightie and all and a bath at 4am – then to the doctors and she was nervous and stiff and like a rhino to lift while he did a colon exam for bleeding hemorrhoids and today at 6am she got up to use the commode and decided to sit in my recliner and peed through the nightie, pad and chair and then looks at me while I am changing and helping and very very angry and says “oh stop – it is only a little bit of piss” is this why old people are abused – I screamed a lot more than I wanted to and woke up Tere and then went out side and breathed and I really need a break – she is so ungrateful and so very sick. I can’t wait until the meds kick in and she is just normal sick – I thought that was bad – but suppositories twice a day and four creams and two antibiotics along with all the other pills and blood pressure and than an ungrateful ornery bitchy mom and tells me to get off my soap box – I want to punch her I am so angry.  I didn’t and I won’t but can she ever say Oh my I am so sorry is the chair ruined – I feel badly.  I didn’t mean it.  No, it is only a little bit of (smelly old lady morning vitamin induced and medicine laced) PISS ukk…and I wanted to go back to sleep for once how dare I dream…and if i tell my two sisters they will tell me they are way too busy and if it is too much put her away.  she generally is not ready when she doesn’t’ have a bronchial infection to be put away and I know it will kill her and I don’t’ want that I really don’t just this bathroom stuff wears on me I am not a nurse and don’t like any of this.  rantrantrantrantSassy….

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